Made me beautiful

(repost from my old blog)

Aunt Mary & my cousin sis came down to Pg andwe had seafood dinner at Oriental seafood shop on Sun night.As i was quietly waiting for my aunt to order the food,mum pulled me aside and pointed out to the aquariums beside the stall

She said:"Look! lobsters...! and mantis prawns... beautiful right? You see... I've never knw that mantis prawns can move so beautifully in the water and look at the body of lobsters... the designs are so unique and beautifullook... look.. come take a look!"

I look at her and i said"I've seen it before, and I find it geli (irritating), with all the legs.. it's scary"

She said"U knw what, they're just as beautiful as how God has designed and created them uniquely. It's amazing to know that God created them, even in every small little details. The wonders of nature shows you how mighty and amazing God is."I smiled.

The whole dinner,I was wondering why would God just spent so much time and effort to design orcreate something beautiful in His eyes when He knew that the creaturewould have be eaten by human beings in just less than half an hour,and took only less than 5 mins to admire the beauty of it's shell? Why would He created beautiful flowers that will wilt in just days? I soon realized, that all the effort and time thatHe put in every creation, is out of love.It was simple to understand His heart by putting it in layman's term. I once put alot of love n effort to bake cookies for someone else, it was solely made out of love, even when i was stirring the batter, u can find me smilling all the way until the cookies are out frm the oven. I knew that the cookie could be 'dissapearing'in someone's stomach in less than 5 minsit's logically a 'waste' to spend so much time for just 5 mins. But it was purely an expression of loveIt was out of love, God made all His creation beautifulan expression of love that takes time and effort,even though i thought it was worthless to do that for just alobster(awaiting to be eaten) to look so detailed and beautiful.


Today i wake up and the first thing i said
"God, I thank you, for making me beautiful in your eyes".

It just reminded me that the low self esteem of me should just fade away slowly day by day through the love of God that made me beautiful.